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well who knows until you try? If it goes to hell with geist at least you can say you tried to mend matters. if you dont feel like it right now maybe give it a shot when things settle. I’m sure he can be reached, or something like that. I might be overly optimistic but it’s better than nothing, he seemed to lighten up with flaps after they talked so who knows, the guy’s super weird

* { i’ll…. i’ll think about it. }

* { after flaps is back to normal. ;; }

I’m glad you’ve realized your mistakes, Runiel. Why were you so overbearing and controlling in the first place, and how did you realize you were wrong?

* { i think a lot of it that i was scared. and…. actively trying to push people away, i guess? }

* { i didn’t like being awake. i didn’t like being aware of things again, but i figured that if i had to stay awake, i could at least try to actively go after the big threats in the void. }

* { and maybe that if i was too aggressive about it, maybe i’d be forced back into being dormant. or. something. i don’t know. i wasn’t happy back then and it’s still hard for me to not want to go back to not being actively around. }

If you don’t want anons harassing Geist, maybe you should go talk to him like Flaps has? Beware…Geist is still an ass at heart. Speaking of him, why didn’t you two speak up about the house’s treatment of him? Was it because you two were still trying to kiss everyone’s asses, or did you genuinely hate Geist back then?

* { i’d like to clarify that we weren’t “kissing asses”, at any point. we’d been trying to avoid conflict. }

* { there were a couple people who lived here who made some particularly rude comments towards geist, and i’ll admit, it was wrong of us to say nothing – neither of us hated him at that point, but as more time went on past that it just got harder for flaps to come talk to him about it. }

* { those people don’t live here anymore, though, and i’d rather not delve into who they were or what was said. }

* { as for why i haven’t talked to him myself – what would i even say? i joined the chat and as soon as he saw he voiced his disdain for me, it’s not like i can just go “hey i’m sorry i killed you twenty some-odd times” }

* { he hates me for what i’ve done, and what i am, and what i have the ability to do. and i don’t blame him for that. i want to talk to him, yeah, but nothing i say would affect how he feels about me. }

well we all are capable of making mistakes, what matters most is what you do after the fact. you know you did some bad things are learning from them, which is a really good step in the right direction. you could always bury the hatchet with those you hurt, if they continue to be dicks then that’s on them honestly. you’re a good kid after all, you’re learning having to deal with so much after all

* { i guess so. i do try, but like… i don’t want to absolve myself of things by being like, “oh i’ve moved on, they’re the ones who suck for not doing the same” }

* { because it doesn’t really work like that, you know? at the very least i’d like to just… i dont know. if people have an issue with me, fine, so be it, i just. don’t want it thrown at me whenever i so much as show up somewhere. }

* { ugh. this feels like i’m going back and forth too much,,, i don’t want to fault anyone for being upset or afraid but i also just, want to be left alone if i’m not going out of my way to talk to someone, i guess? i don’t know. }

Why does everyone seem to hate and fear you? You try so hard, so much harder than everyone else…why can’t people see that you’re a kid with way too much on their plate? They only see the demon they want to see…disgusting! You don’t pay them any heed! You’re not a demon, or something to that holds Flaps back! You help others in need, and are a wonderful friend to Flaps! You respect him enough to let him remember…you have so much power over him, but you use it for his good!

* { they hate and fear me for damn good reason and i’m not about to sit here and act the victim over it. }

* { like, yes! it hurts like hell. yes, it’s isolating. yes, i wish it wasn’t the way it is – but because of who and what i am, there’s always going to be people who are afraid of me. for what others like me have done. }

* { and i’m not in a position to fault someone for being afraid like that. i’ve made my mistakes, i’ve hurt people. i’m not completely innocent. i’m still learning. }

* { acting like i do no wrong and that everyone who says otherwise is just “a hater” is only going to end poorly. it’s a harsh criticism, but it’s a needed one. i do have a lot of power, and i need to make sure i keep that fact in mind. so that i don’t abuse it anymore. }

that’s good to hear! maybe when all of this blows over and flaps gets back to a better state you guys can make friends with everyone? im sure with time things can improve for everyone, you’ve both improved so much it’d suck to have it all fall apart now. just gotta hang in there and hope for the best!

* { i hope so…. making friends with everyone isn’t super attainable, though, we’ve come to realize that. }

* { not everyone is going to like us, or get along with us. it wasn’t smart of us to try and keep forcing it, you know. }

* { being amicable with others is a lot more attainable. }