Yeah. I gotta make sure my friend is still doing the anon thing. But I’ll let you know before I ask them to do anything.

* { thank you ;; it means a lot to me. }

well we all are capable of making mistakes, what matters most is what you do after the fact. you know you did some bad things are learning from them, which is a really good step in the right direction. you could always bury the hatchet with those you hurt, if they continue to be dicks then that’s on them honestly. you’re a good kid after all, you’re learning having to deal with so much after all

* { i guess so. i do try, but like… i don’t want to absolve myself of things by being like, “oh i’ve moved on, they’re the ones who suck for not doing the same” }

* { because it doesn’t really work like that, you know? at the very least i’d like to just… i dont know. if people have an issue with me, fine, so be it, i just. don’t want it thrown at me whenever i so much as show up somewhere. }

* { ugh. this feels like i’m going back and forth too much,,, i don’t want to fault anyone for being upset or afraid but i also just, want to be left alone if i’m not going out of my way to talk to someone, i guess? i don’t know. }

ancmaly:

Oh yeah makes sense. Anons are sneaky bastards.

* { so… will you talk out what’s being sent beforehand with me or, }

ancmaly:

Relax, dude. If things go my way you’ll be aight too.

* { as much as i’d love to trust that at face value i’ve had things thrown back at me too many times to want to be so lenient when something as important as this is at stake, you know? }

* { like – i don’t doubt that you want and intend to help, not at all, i’m just…. wary and uneasy about this. }

ancmaly:

Trust me dude. I’ll get it sorted out.

Or someone else will, all anons kinda look identical. That’s sorta the point.

* { mm. if you’re sure,,, maybe run the specifics by me before anything gets set in motion? just. so that i can be sure that nothing gets overlooked. ;; }

Why does everyone seem to hate and fear you? You try so hard, so much harder than everyone else…why can’t people see that you’re a kid with way too much on their plate? They only see the demon they want to see…disgusting! You don’t pay them any heed! You’re not a demon, or something to that holds Flaps back! You help others in need, and are a wonderful friend to Flaps! You respect him enough to let him remember…you have so much power over him, but you use it for his good!

* { they hate and fear me for damn good reason and i’m not about to sit here and act the victim over it. }

* { like, yes! it hurts like hell. yes, it’s isolating. yes, i wish it wasn’t the way it is – but because of who and what i am, there’s always going to be people who are afraid of me. for what others like me have done. }

* { and i’m not in a position to fault someone for being afraid like that. i’ve made my mistakes, i’ve hurt people. i’m not completely innocent. i’m still learning. }

* { acting like i do no wrong and that everyone who says otherwise is just “a hater” is only going to end poorly. it’s a harsh criticism, but it’s a needed one. i do have a lot of power, and i need to make sure i keep that fact in mind. so that i don’t abuse it anymore. }