well who knows until you try? If it goes to hell with geist at least you can say you tried to mend matters. if you dont feel like it right now maybe give it a shot when things settle. I’m sure he can be reached, or something like that. I might be overly optimistic but it’s better than nothing, he seemed to lighten up with flaps after they talked so who knows, the guy’s super weird

* { i’ll…. i’ll think about it. }

* { after flaps is back to normal. ;; }

I’m glad you’ve realized your mistakes, Runiel. Why were you so overbearing and controlling in the first place, and how did you realize you were wrong?

* { i think a lot of it that i was scared. and…. actively trying to push people away, i guess? }

* { i didn’t like being awake. i didn’t like being aware of things again, but i figured that if i had to stay awake, i could at least try to actively go after the big threats in the void. }

* { and maybe that if i was too aggressive about it, maybe i’d be forced back into being dormant. or. something. i don’t know. i wasn’t happy back then and it’s still hard for me to not want to go back to not being actively around. }

If you don’t want anons harassing Geist, maybe you should go talk to him like Flaps has? Beware…Geist is still an ass at heart. Speaking of him, why didn’t you two speak up about the house’s treatment of him? Was it because you two were still trying to kiss everyone’s asses, or did you genuinely hate Geist back then?

* { i’d like to clarify that we weren’t “kissing asses”, at any point. we’d been trying to avoid conflict. }

* { there were a couple people who lived here who made some particularly rude comments towards geist, and i’ll admit, it was wrong of us to say nothing – neither of us hated him at that point, but as more time went on past that it just got harder for flaps to come talk to him about it. }

* { those people don’t live here anymore, though, and i’d rather not delve into who they were or what was said. }

* { as for why i haven’t talked to him myself – what would i even say? i joined the chat and as soon as he saw he voiced his disdain for me, it’s not like i can just go “hey i’m sorry i killed you twenty some-odd times” }

* { he hates me for what i’ve done, and what i am, and what i have the ability to do. and i don’t blame him for that. i want to talk to him, yeah, but nothing i say would affect how he feels about me. }

Even though you’ve managed to prevent other people from ruining Flaps’ day, how are you going to deal with other mean anons like the one that started this mess? They could make Flaps’ sorrow even worse…

* { i don’t really know. i guess i kinda have to just… deal with things as they go, you know. some things i’m not allowed to block. }

Do you think it’d help Flaps if you erased some of his bad memories? Or would he find out and feel betrayed eventually?

* { the last time he found out about repressed/removed memories we all nearly died. }

* { so i’d like to avoid that, yeah. }

* { please don’t harrass geist on my behalf, ive done him a lot of wrong and he has every right to hate me }

ancmaly:

Yeah. I gotta make sure my friend is still doing the anon thing. But I’ll let you know before I ask them to do anything.

* { thank you ;; it means a lot to me. }

well we all are capable of making mistakes, what matters most is what you do after the fact. you know you did some bad things are learning from them, which is a really good step in the right direction. you could always bury the hatchet with those you hurt, if they continue to be dicks then that’s on them honestly. you’re a good kid after all, you’re learning having to deal with so much after all

* { i guess so. i do try, but like… i don’t want to absolve myself of things by being like, “oh i’ve moved on, they’re the ones who suck for not doing the same” }

* { because it doesn’t really work like that, you know? at the very least i’d like to just… i dont know. if people have an issue with me, fine, so be it, i just. don’t want it thrown at me whenever i so much as show up somewhere. }

* { ugh. this feels like i’m going back and forth too much,,, i don’t want to fault anyone for being upset or afraid but i also just, want to be left alone if i’m not going out of my way to talk to someone, i guess? i don’t know. }

ancmaly:

Oh yeah makes sense. Anons are sneaky bastards.

* { so… will you talk out what’s being sent beforehand with me or, }

ancmaly:

Relax, dude. If things go my way you’ll be aight too.

* { as much as i’d love to trust that at face value i’ve had things thrown back at me too many times to want to be so lenient when something as important as this is at stake, you know? }

* { like – i don’t doubt that you want and intend to help, not at all, i’m just…. wary and uneasy about this. }